Have you met my heart?
Before I had a baby, I did not know how immense a mother's love could be. I had no idea I would ever actually say "I'll do ANYTHING FOR YOU" and actually mean it. The reality that I would readily cause or receive harm in place of another was just a concept I thought cute and romantic but not realistic. I was used to simply living for me. As the third child, I got to get away with being a little extra and selfish. I wasn't the first born, no responsibilities, I wasn't the last, getting all the attention. I was the third of four children. Ever heard of the third child syndrome? Well here I am, a living example lol. Ok I wasn't that bad, i just had a touch of the syndrome. Not in any world or realm did I envision myself taking one for the team. Now I get it.
I find my mind constantly racing. Always trying to figure out what i can do to ensure my boys live a life of comfort. As with all parents I'm sure, I want to make the lives my children will live less stressful. There are going to be so many obstacles and I know I won't be able to shield them from all. It sucks, yes, but I will damn sure try.
Have you ever felt so much love for a person you literally can't stop the tears of joy from streaming down your cheeks? Ever wondered what life would be like without them and everything goes blank? You realize, there is no life without them. The picture returns and you realize it is black and white till images of them bring the color back to your sight.
I'm a mom. I am their mom. God allowed me to nurture these kings and I am beyond grateful. My God.